Running with a schedule where I go home only to crash n have dinner :) I have started to use the time I take to travel- to think and jot down things.... there was this strange thought abut what permanence means to me? And there was no spontaneous answer coming my way!
If i were to define permanence, I would equate it to the nonexistance of pretence and the acceptance of tranisition.
Being in a role which is not predefined/ wch is very new for my organisation, I get to do a 100 different things but at the same time I will have to let go of things I may really like doing as other things may take precedence. For ex, I got trained in using MS Project with the technical teams and I wanted to use it to chart the many projects we have planned for the next 3 years. But the dependencies on other functions and practices are so huge that making an approximate time line wouldnt suffice. Hence though I completely understand PM and Gnatt charts I would not be able to use it effectively to help my team. I use concept mapping for conflict resolution n this is tool I want more people in the team to adopt and use," its easier said than done":).........already tied up with forecasts and targets to meet my team becomes caught up in the vagaries of the transactional aspects of their job, despite working post work hrs when most interviews are scheduled....despite working in weekends and moving to different locations, my team remains cheerful n enthusiastic, this again , I term as permanence.
Living by what one belives in, and accepting that despite all cause n effect things may not work out as expectd, is permanence. Its the ability to carry a smile on one's face no matter what happens or doesnt happen is permanence :)
The willingness to stretch and participate in a dance competition which isnt compulsory is again a reflection of the same. I am a very average dancer, but because of this knowledge I spend more time practising, there are times when I wake up in the early hours of the morining n practise....... being the tallest in the team I have to be extra careful when we maneur complex moves n the way we sink up with each other without xchanging a single word is again 'permanence' I am sure all of u notice things like this happen in and around u, but do u reflect on the patterns whr u dont have to say bt u r understood, u dont have to ask, but u recieve, u dont hav to manipulate, but things happn according to ur needs, that again is permanence. As certain as death is, so is our existance itself.
We worry, we fret, we pursue, we cause pain, we complicate relationships, all in the search for happiness and fr the gratification of the self, but if we were to not bother, to let things happen naturally, go with the flow :) we would find life beautiful n happiness all around, we all wear different colored shades, shades of arrogance, shades of pride and shades of sure footedness at the same time being blind to another's arrogance, pride n sure footedness, thats when we make life shallow n superficial what applies to us doesnt apply to somone else....this again results in permanence- a permanent pursuit of happiness without realising that its within and around us always....
my need to dishonour the line between whats right n whats wrong, whats predefined, whats undefined and my willingness to accept this volatility is permanence. I dont have to fake my needs, neither do I have to fake my inability to achieve them. I know that I sometimes pursue what many may see as dark or wild only for the curiosity of it. Its easy for me to have control n pretend to not be under any control, and my willingness to admit this pretence is 'permanence' ....I dont see myself getting into holy matrimony in the near future because I cannot invest my time and energy into a relationship at this moment, my entire day n night is spent in a world strategising my career n my work, because i knw that after a while it would be a state of 'times up' either I do things now or i wait for things to happen later, I enjoy the co of many of my male friends but I am very clear abt whr I stand w.r.t thm, thr maybe one of thm whom I may absoultely love but I am definitely confused n hypocrytic abt it, this acceptance of the duality in me is permanent :)...well! each of you will have your own definitions, but if you start looking at things around you and you were to make plane for the future, do plan some contigency for the permanence of the unknown, time and space are definitely dimensions of permanence but this is a permanence we live in the illusion that we control....
There is a mention of a concept called BRIM- brains remote implicit memory, look it up [ source: the case of a Bonsai Manager], it definitely is permanent, I think most of our intuitive and sensitivity to situations arises because of BRIM. Logic, reasoning are all fair but what happens to 'gut' feel? do we clamour for attention realising that everyone else is as well:)? do we decieve the need to excel by pretending to give up n in the garb/viel of genrosity n kindness?
we all live n grow in the 'pursuit of the self' :) this sure is permanent...nw u knw y this write u looks like a sneak peek into the notes of a 'megalomaniac' I voice all that I feel n my need for this voice to exist is permanent...
My affection n feelings of bonding towards each of u is definitely permanent....
look forwrd to my take on 'aaja nachle' n 'beouwolf'..i happened to watch to Russian english movies called daywatch n nightwatch, very interesting take on the light n darkness that exists n an apt adaptation on the legend of the 'chalk of fate', maybe some subconcious thoughts on permanence r a consequence of all the movies n the books :)
you can also look forward to the permanence of your inbox recieving some of my thoughts...
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